So this is my first blog ever and I am kind of excited about it. I think I will start with a little information about myself. My name is Brianna, I am 22 years old, I currently live in Utah and attend BYU, and I have a wonderful family and a super amazing fiance.
Living with roommates throughout college I have developed some good friendships. Especially Sadie, she is wonderful and beautiful and the biggest sweetheart I have ever met in case you were wondering. She will do anything for a friend and she is very trustworthy the two most important characteristics in my book. Sadie has definitely become one of my best friends this past year.
Who is my other best friend you might ask? Well it is my fiance Ray of course. Oh man he is the most wonderful man I could have ever dreamed up for myself. Let me tell you a few reasons why I love him:
1. He treats me like a princess.
2. He treats me like a princess even when I am being a brat.
3. He makes me feel beautiful.
4. He loves the gospel.
5. He loves his family and treats them well
6. He is super duper handsome.
7. He has an awesome work ethic.
8. He gets along well with my family.
9. He is good with kids and wants to have a family.
..... Really I could go on forever I think but I will just sum up that I love him very very much.
Let me tell you our story, but let me forewarn you it is a long one and you could possibly get bored:
We met at the end of March in 2011 and really hit it off as friends, I thought he was so cool and awesome and apparently he thought the same because a week later he made up an excuse about copying my roommates cd just do he could talk to me(or so he claims). Anywho after this second encounter I decided that I really wanted to be good friends with this kid so the next evening, a Monday, I went to visit him at his apartment. His roommate Cody had an ex-girlfriend over and the four of us decided to go and eat at Sammy's while there Ray did not even sit by me and he flirted with the other girl the whole evening, when we returned to the apartment the three of them, Cody, Ray, and Cody's ex-girlfriend decided to cuddle and I decided that I had had enough and I left.
The next evening I, after getting over my intial discomfort, came to the conclusion that it was okay that he obviously had no romantic interest in me because I was not even sure how I felt about him but I still very much wanted to be friends so I went over and asked him if he still needed to go to Walmart because he had mentioned it the night before. I apparently caught him at the perfect time because he was just getting ready to go there himself and thus our first Walmart date began.
We had a wonderful time at Walmart and had decided that we were going to go and see the movie Unknown the next night in the dollar theater. He drove, he paid, and after the showing he put his arm around me as we were walking back to the apartment and I kind of panicked. I did not think that I was interested in him in that way and I was sure that he wasn't interested in me that way because of the night at Sammy's and I did not want just another cuddle buddy. However, that was all that happened and so I decided that it was okay, but the next night after work he came by to see me and to watch a movie with me and he expressed how much he had missed me and while watching the movie he put his arm around me. Then as we were saying goodbye he told me that he liked me, a lot. My response? "That's nice."
So we didn't see each again until Saturday night, we went on a drive up the Provo Canyon and stopped at a park to watch the stars, I could not get the nerve up to tell him that I wasn't interested yet so we just hung out and talked and he also told me that he told his mom about me, yeah that didn't freak me out or anything.
The next day we saw each other but didn't really talk until after church when I told him that we needed to talk. I had finally got up the nerve and told him that I wasn't interested in dating him or anyone at the moment, it was so hard and I felt so bad about it.
So then the next day at FHE we were having a sports night, I went with my roommate and we played volleyball and Ray was also there because he was the FHE coordinator and he was playing soccer. One of the most attractive thing about a guy to me is when they are athletically talented, so my mind was changed, but he didn't even talk to me there and I really just felt like an idiot. So I went over to his apartment that night to try to smooth things out a bit so maybe I could tell him that I actually did want to date him but I wanted to take it slowly. We decided to go to a movie the next night (Hanna, it was the worst movie ever), and it was super duper awkward because he had no idea how I was feeling and he thought I still just wanted to be friends. By the way, you really can't be friends with someone that likes you and you don't like them because it just hurts them. Any who we went home feeling awkward and unsure, so the next day I decided I must tell him that night that my feelings had changed. So I invited him to watch Nacho Libre with me in the lounge, it was awesome, somehow we ended up cuddling and then after the movie we talked about everything in our lives from family to religion to future jobs and I told him that I take back what I had said and I wanted to date him. We didn't label our relationship that night but we soon did as we learned more about each other and became better and better friends (Best. First. Kiss. Ever.).
Just so you know, sometimes I am stupid and I don't realize all of the wonderful things I have in life and for the whole first month I was really not into the relationship and I didn't know if I really wanted to date him still, I was so back and forth and kind of jerk. And finally I decided that we needed a break, so on a Sunday night I told him that I wanted to go on a break and I wasn't sure for how long but that we would talk later. Also I cried when I did this which should have been the first sign that there was more to the relationship than I thought, because I never cry. I was a wreck the next 2 and a half days and so that Wednesday evening I decided to go to institute, which I must admit I never go to, just so that I could see him because he goes every week. Well long story short it was really weird and awkward at first and then my friend Lindsey(I love her to death!) forced us into a conversation and then it was like we had never been apart, my heart soared until I remembered that I stil had to tell him that I didn't want to be on a break any more.
So that night after institute I went over to his apartment and we watched some sports with his roommates during the course of the evening we ended up cuddling on the couch but the words had not been spoken yet so after his roommates finally left I told him how much I had missed him and how horrid the past 2 days had been and we kissed and made up and got back together and the rest is history. We have had our disagreements and our arguments, but who doesn't? I would not trade him for anything. We got engaged over last Thanksgiving break in San Diego(his hometown) and we will be getting sealed in the San Diego temple in May. I am so excited to marry my best friend!
Now that I have bored you with the sentimental gushy stuff I hope you enjoyed my stupidity and that you take from this that it is okay to change your mind, just always listen to your heart.
